The ultimate feels....

...sticky, constricting, painful, jagged, sharp, rough,

hurtful, lonely, dividing, hard, dark, confining, and defining.

... like I want to scream, put the brakes on, give up, drop

to my knees and beg for no more. No more images,

flashbacks, freezing torture, memories, and feelings.

...conflictingly so, strangely doable with every breath, even

in those darkest, despairing moments. Even in those

times where I feel like I'm being drug on my knees

by my hair down a path I do not want to travel.

...full of hope. Just like everything else I have conquered,

this too shall pass. This will be my biggest triumph on

this journey of mine thus far. This will make me strong,

wise, healthy, whole, empathic, and connected.

...like I just might not be that alone after all. You are here,

I feel You, and that brings a comfort unlike any other.