Happy Halloween everyone.....

Gross? Yes....but creative and cool as well :)

I'm off to Erica's boyfriend's party tonight. We don't have to dress up thankfully, however I think those California dudes that I hang out with are. They've been trying to get me to join, but I don't have good Halloween spirit apparently. I'll try to remember to bring my camera and capture some of the fun. I will say though that I'm going to miss handing out cans of pop to the neighbourhood kids back home. If I was home, Troop would be getting dressed up and answering the door with me. I wonder how confused and crazy he'll be tonight? Have fun dear :)

Week 9 I.....

• got over 100% (there was a bonus question) on my PIFE midterm that I was worried about (only 4 of us did this, oh ya)
• had 2 counseling sessions
• listened to Chris Brown's song "Forever" way too much
• had "Forever" stuck in my head everyday and would pass that gift on to Christian and Erica :)
• missed Jason A LOT
• wished my puppy was here, honey can you and Troop come live in VA?
• went to an EMU intramural football game
• will be attending a Halloween party
• felt the closest I've ever felt to having a panic attack and it was scary
• was faced with a dual relationship dilemma and failed
• had Chipotle again, yum
• watched the movie "Zombieland", although stupid premise it was funny at times
• realized that I have a big spot in my heart for sex offenders and that others don't usually share this view
• learned about cognitive behavioral theory
• Trooper is now in a kennel all day long and he seems to be loving it
• haven't spent too much time alone, thankfully
• have been really tired, but have been feeling good
• heard about practicum for next semester?!?!?! I have to have a minimal of 40 hours (or 40 sessions) of direct one on one contact with clients next semester...ahhhhhhhhh
• booked my plane ticket for Christmas....Dec. 19 I'll be back home, 7 more weeks baby!
• realized that role playing in a client/counselor role with one of your close buddies is difficult
• laughed a lot
• registered for my spring semester courses
• joined the American Counselor Association (ACA)....I feel so grown up :)
• have been missing Him, but am realizing that He's still there
• did another midterm, only one more to go
• have been a busy, busy girl

Love this....

I'm a huge fan of The Office. I can't even begin to explain to you how happy I was to FINALLY see Jim and Pam get married. I might have cried a bit watching that episode, I don't think it helps that Jason is 19 hours away. Anyways, I had no idea that the dance at the end to the Chris Brown song was an actual thing that a couple did at their wedding. I have watched this so many times. I don't know what it is about this song but it makes me smile, get teary, and just lift my spirits when I'm missing that man of mine. I've been listening to it a lot lately. Dec. 19 is a long way away!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-94JhLEiN0

Mandi or Mel....how do I get the freaking video to be on my blog so that it's not the link? I'm so inexperienced at this!

This moment....

And I'm back to feeling like this again.....

this= stumbling towards what I think is light, but I have so much unwanted confusion, thoughts, and images flooding my mind that it makes me want to sit down, hide my face and block my ears.

I will not though...I will not give up, not now...not after all of this. It's that determination, that hope of knowing that this too shall pass, that keeps me pushing forward.

I love this picture... I imagine my face behind that candle. It's the only thing that makes me want to come out of the darkness because, in the end, I know it will be okay. It illuminates me unlike anything else. I feel the warmth of the glow of unconditional love on my face and I see the truth in it.

Good times....

So last night we went to see David's (one of my buddies from school...he's the guitar player on the far left) band play at a local bar....

I've decided that I need to start bringing my camera to these events because we just have way too much fun taking crazy pictures. Also it will give you guys more insight into my world, basically I need to start being a better blogger...ha ha ha

Here are my 3 favorite buddies..... these guys bring a lot of joy to my life and I'm very thankful for them! You have seen pics of Erica and Christian before, but this is the first time I'm introducing you to Trevor. He and Christian are brothers.
So Christian and Trev have just started doing this snake thing all the time.....don't ask their from LA so they are just weird :) I'm laughing here because I just wasn't expecting it to happen in this pic. The other guy in this picture is Tom, he is also one of my classmates. He and his wife are planning a trip to PEI this summer. So they are going to come and visit me in NB!!! This makes me happy because someone will get a glimpse of my life back home. Oh FYI honey....I haven't told you about that yet!

I love, love , love this girl! How hot are we? :) Oh Mandi, Erica is probably going to get engaged any time now and I'm totally trying to convince her to do the Chris Brown song thing at her wedding!!! I've still got loads of convincing to do, she loved it but doesn't think she'd have the guts to do it.

Left to right: David's wife Shelly, (the rest of these gals are my classmates) Jennifer, me, Ellen, Erica, and Kristee

I'm only posting this because this picture makes me laugh every time I see it. I have no idea what either of us are doing here. I was supposed to be looking at the camera I thought and Trev couldn't shut up long enough to take a picture apparently. Someone was a little intoxicated and it was not me :)

I'm off to the coffee shop to get some work done. Hope everyone is doing well!

Awwwwww.....

How cute is this guy? This is Trooper in his new coat that Erica and I picked out for him. The fur that you're seeing sticking out from around his neck is the fur on the hood of the jacket. It's a very trendy jacket so we couldn't resist. Hopefully it will stop the shivering on those cold days that are up ahead! (Jason we should have took the tags off for the picture)

Week 8 realizations.....

1. chicken is way cheaper down here.... I got 5 boneless skinless chicken breasts for $4.10 yesterday and that's not a sale price
2. telling your spiritual journey to a random group of people can be scary and humbling all at the same time
3. midterms aren't just tests in grad school
4. emailing the prof a suggestion can turn into a good idea and then you'll need to speak on the topic in class the next day...guess who introduced the class to DID? :)
5. loving Mario Party on the Wii
6. been invited to 2 Halloween parties
7. having patience issues with some in my class and my roommate
8. leaves are changing on the mountains and it's beautiful
9. Dulles airport is ridiculously busy and confusing
10. meeting with my advisor opened my eyes to a lot of things
11. a trip home re energized me so much....these next few weeks will be a lot easier because of it
12. I am a very passionate person and I'm learning to embrace that
13. 8 for 8 with crying in Techniques...sheesh
14. will I ever not fight crying?
15. looking forward to counseling tomorrow
16. I have a lot of work to do....editor in chief watch out
17. I have something planned each night for the next four nights all with different people.... YAY for friends!
18. don't let things sit, just address them and you'll feel so much better
19. the worst realization of my week.....the 3 hour midterm is only worth 10% of my mark... COME ON! I'm quite bitter about this midterm aren't I? However this may be the best realization depending on what my mark is :)

WOAH......

Holy crap I am pumped right now.....

So I decided to do some research tonight (you know because I have all of this spare time) to see if there was some specific dissociative identity disorder (DID) training that I could do. There is... so that's exciting....but what's even more exciting is this

This is a show on Showtime called The United States of Tara. It's about a mom (played by Toni Colette....love her) who has DID. Can I just tell you I had the biggest smile on my face watching this show. I was actually able to see what was coming next. It was so cool! I have such a HUGE passion for DID and I just know I'm going to be working with people who have been BLESSED by this wonderful coping mechanism. Anyways, I could go on and on but I need to get ready for tomorrow. I know some of you are going to be interested in seeing this so I'll keep my fingers crossed that you can find a website to watch it on there. I was able to watch the first episode here http://www.sho.com/site/order/preview.do#/US_Tara_s01_e01 hopefully that link will work for you.

AHHHHH I love my heart and the joy these moments bring me. I have tears in my eyes right now and I'm so thankful to be handed this precious gift of getting my Masters in Counselling so that I can attend to others in an authentic, empathetic, trusting way!!!!!

High and low.....

Positive about today: It's freaking 23 here today....I was able to pull out the flip flops yet again... whose jealous?

Negative about today: MY MIDTERM....that's right I said MIDTERM.... WAS FREAKING 3 HOURS LONG! Is that not insane? Arghhhh I'm freaking drained right now. My "A" streak may be over. I'll let you all know when I get it back, yes even if it's not a "A" :)

Although I'm tired I've got more work to do for tomorrow. Normally I just relax on Wed nights. However, spending time with Jason this weekend was important so some things got bumped. Good thing I get to type those assignments though. My poor hand cannot write anymore today!

Thank you all for your well wishes about my midterm..... I was a little stressed!

Quick post....

(man that title makes me think of accounting.....) Sorry I dropped you all on my count down, things got a little hectic towards the end....

I'm a little stressed right now so I don't have a lot of time. I'm just getting back to VA, it's been a long day, and I have a midterm tomorrow that I need to study for. However, I wanted to let you all know that I made it back safe and sound.

I'm so thankful for the weekend. Although it was short and quick I had loads of fun. Thank you all for your blesses and well wishes. Getting to see everyone, going to MY church, laughing, playing games, SEEING JASON, squeezing that cuddly puppy, etc, etc, etc, has given me the strength to go on for another 8 weeks. Hopefully before I know it I'll be doing another daily count down!

Now on to study professional identity, function and ethics..... I think I'm going to need some strong tea for this one......

3 days....

I'm so glad yesterday is over. I haven't cried that much in a long time. Why is it that when one thing happens in your life a million more things hit as well? And how is it that you can have the best of intentions but those are usually received wrong on the other end? Anyways, it's done and I have a session with good old Nate on Wednesday night so I'm all set :)

I'm feeling really stressed right now so I'm going to be mean and not put up a pic. I'm running out of time to get all my school work done. I've been working really hard because I don't want to do a single thing when I'm home this weekend. I'm almost at that place. Plus I have to go out this afternoon and get some final supplies to bring back with me (Deb I've looked every where for those candies and have not found them....maybe at CHristmas time). Someone has put in an order for a coat for Trooper :)

I do however want to post this quote. I'm not usually one for quotes but I love this one. I pretty much love anything and everything to do with counseling right now because that's my life and I'm freaking pumped about it!

"Pay attention, we are listening each other into being!"

4 days....

How come the closer it gets to me going home the harder this is getting? Sheesh I am a mess today! I REALLY need to see this guy soon!

ha ha this was Jason's reaction when he got to the top of the escalator at the PGA Pro Shop in St. Augustine, Florida. Can you believe that we actually left there without buying anything?

5 days....

So I'm getting quite weepy whenever anyone asks me where home is or gives me the whole "oh you poor thing" when they realize my husband is still there. I found last night particularly hard after watching The Office (hooray Pam and Jim FINALLY got married...it was so good). Then today with Thanksgiving, this is the first time that I haven't been with my family for that. I don't know, it was just weird.

However thankfully I have some people here who I am super thankful for. Thinking of these 4 main people right now just makes my heart fill up with joy (well actually there are 5 but I do not have a picture of Trevor...I'll have to work on that). Without them I don't know where I'd be.

(Christian and Erica)

(Kurt---the Canadian---Nathan, Eli and April)

Since I've focused on Erica and Christian before let's talk about April and Kurt. I've only known these guys for 4 weeks now but I have been at there house every week for those 4 weeks. Being at their house reminds me of when I'm at Mandi and Greg's (except I haven't hit the upstairs bathroom yet...ha ha ha). I feel so comfortable there. April and I cook and chat. The kids are wonderful. Nathan is special needs and melts my heart and Eli. Ha ha ha oh Eli. She is a diva with a capital D. I love it. She so reminds me of Katie when she was younger. Oh and another favorite thing at their house for me is this guy....

Miles greets me in the driveway every time I come. I love him and he loves me. I snuck him some turkey tonight so we'll be best buds forever :) He has one fang that's longer than the other and hangs out of his mouth. It's really cute but you've got to watch it when you're petting him. He gets so into it and starts rubbing his head all over you not realizing that the freaky fang can slice you open.

The other nuts thing is that Kurt and Jason are wayyyyyy too much alike. Since Kurt has been married longer he has all the things that Jason is still begging me for. Like a truck for example. Kurt just got a brand new truck and it just happens to be the same one Jason wants. I told Kurt this the first time I went over. So EVERY time I go over now guess who has a new reason for why I should let Jason get a truck? Yup you got it Mr. Kurt. It's like having a piece of Jason right here in VA :) Today we need a truck so that we can haul folding tables and chairs from the church for our big Thanksgiving get together. I told him that 1. I would never have that many people to my house for a meal and 2. I don't go to a church that has folding tables and chairs that I would need to put in a truck. Doesn't matter though, he'll have something else for the next time I go over.

Anyways, although I wasn't home for Thanksgiving it was a blast. I'm tired and stuffed to the max but it was so worth it. The warmth and love I felt tonight helped me make it through another day in this sometimes difficult, lonely journey. I'm so thankful to them for blessing me with their home and love. I went to their church for the first time today as well and it was the first time since I've been here that I really connected with God in a church environment. I have soooo missed that. So needless to say I'll be back. Anyways here are a couple more pics from tonight....

Lastly Eli wanted me to put this on my blog because "this is the sign for I love you". I showed her what I thought it was but she said "no this is it, I know sign language" :) So there you go folks, a little lesson from a very smart 5 year old!

6 days....

Eeeeekkkkkk I'm so excited!!! I was telling someone today that this time next week I would be home and I got all teary. I can't wait!

I had a blast today. April and I worked in the kitchen for 6 hours straight. It was so fun. Friends she is just like me, loves to cook and bake. So her kitchen is well stocked with all of the gadgets I would need to make my creations. I made a triple batch of sweet potato casserole, triple batch of green been casserole, double recipe of pumpkin cake with cream cheese icing, and double recipe of apple cake (which looks like it turned out wonderfully...if it tastes as good as it looks I'll post the recipe so that those of you who have way too many apples right now can bake away...yes Mandi even you could make this recipe). April peeled 20 lbs of potatoes, 10lbs of carrots, put the turkey in a brine mixture (this was interesting and I can't wait to try it), a triple batch of stuffing, and a triple batch of cranberry salad (can't wait to try this as well it has cranberries, apples, celery, and other goodies). So tomorrow we're off to church and then back to her house to get everything cooked. She's asked the neighbour if we can use her oven as well thankfully! I'm so excited... can you tell that I REALLY needed this in my life? Her husband was great at keeping the kids busy and felt bad for us, so he treated us to supper at a brewery downtown where they even make their own root beer. It was delicious!

Anyways, I'm off to bed shortly for my busy day tomorrow. Before i do though here's my pic of the day...
I just realized that this poor little guy has not made my blog yet, not too hard to tell who my favorites are huh? Sheesh I'm a bad mom :) Anyways, this is Alpine (or Moe as I like to call him). He's definitely Papa's boy! However, I can't wait to grab him and give him a big kiss, even though he'll be squirming the whole time.

Big boy haircut....

Our baby got his first haircut today at 7 months old. NOW he looks like every other Shih Tzu :) I'm surprised he didn't end up with more of the Chihuahua features. So he went from this....

to this.....
I loved Troop's colors in his coat. However I knew someday we would loose them because they were his puppy hair. Although the shaggy coat was so cute, Jason and I decided to get rid of it. Snow and shaggy hair on dogs equals frustration with a capital F. My little guy is growing up :( I think I need to call the breeder and ask if she plans on breeding Troop's parents again. Honey are you up for that challenge? ha ha ha (oh and now I understand all you crazy women who always want another baby....sorry to compare your another baby to my puppy but that's my life).

7 days.....

Holy crap I'm a week away from seeing all of you and my babies :) I'm so freaking excited! This weekend is a busy one for me. Not only am I cooking that Thanksgiving dinner with my friend (we're doing all prep tomorrow). I'm also doing crazy, crazy amounts of school work. I want to be able to go home for those three and a half days and not have to do any homework. I do have a midterm that I will need to study for. However, since I'm going to be on a plane and in airports for 5 hours the day before the midterm, that should be enough time right? Regardless, I'm pumped!

Here is a pic from March 6, 2007. It's from Disneyland in California. This is the first time that Jason had ever seen Mickey Mouse in his life. Now he thought he would be mad that Mickey didn't have red pants on, but as you can see from his face in the picture, he really didn't care because it was freaking Mickey Mouse! I love my husband....

8 days.....

June 2007 somewhere between Port Aux Basques and Cornerbrook, Newfoundland (it was sooooo beautiful there)

Week 6 happenings....

• not interested in Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy (REBT)
• waking up randomly at 5:30 and not being able to get back to sleep makes for a really long day
• I LOVE my counselor!!!!
• got an email that I need to start thinking about practicum for next semester?!?!?!
• need to look into joining Canandian Counselling and Psychotherapy Association and/or American Counseling Association
• need to find inexpensive ways to have fun with friends
• am thankful for my life here right now (if we could just figure out a way that Jason could live here and work I'd be all set)
• feeling sad that one of the residents from the home passed away :(
• am getting used to, and loving, weekly counseling sessions
• had my first intense empathetic experience with someone I barely knew, it was exhausting and wonderfully beautiful all at the same time....ahhh I'm getting teary just thinking about it
• only 10 more weeks to go in this semester...see baby this is going to go by quick!
• this time next weekend I'll be on my way home, now I'm crying
• spring break is huge down here....how do the college students afford it?
• guava yogurt is really good
• don't read about medical concerns on the internet because you'll freak yourself out
• I made Hamburger Helper for the first time in many many years and it was so good
• Costco here is way better than Costco at home however I don't need that much food here, I need it home.....arghhhhhh
• April (don't have pics of her yet) and I are making Thanksgiving supper for 25 people this weekend...I'm so excited...it's been way too long since I cooked and baked (her husband is Canadian so that's why we're celebrating Canadian Thanksgiving because Thanksgiving here isn't until the end of Nov.), she bought everything and I'm going to help
• went to a Mennonite Relief sale....so much yummy food! Basically everything everyone makes gets donated to Mennonite organizations like MCC...I have heard about these so much and it was very fun to finally get to go to one
• got another A on a paper, got an A on my case study report, and got 73/75 on my Psychopathology Midterm (so yes that's another A) folks I am rocking grad school :) ha ha ha

9 days.....

Jason is really really sick right now, he actually hasn't been this sick since I've known him (dude's on puffers for the first time in his life). So I'm having an extra hard time being away right now. So we need to pray that this clears up for many reasons: I don't want it, he is miserable, and we want to be able to have a fun time when I'm home!!!

April 3, 2008 Jason's first time ever going to Walt Disney World and Florida!

Interview observations...

So I'm on week 2 of interviewing an undergraduate. It's interesting, I wasn't nervous at all this time. Things flowed really well. I just got done doing my verbatim assignment from that second interview. So here are some of my observations:

• hearing yourself on tape is weird
• watching yourself on tape is even weirder ("oh my gosh why did I just do that" where some thoughts running through my mind)
• I hate typing out verbatim, so frustrating
• 15 minutes of tape time=5 and a half pages single spaced
• not looking forward to going through it again and writing about all the non-verbal things
• I may have this segment memorized by the time I'm done
• people insert "like" a lot when they're talking
• I freaking talk fast! I know some of you are laughing right now but holy crap... I had to stop and rewind so much when I was talking because I was cramming so much into 5 seconds of tape (you know kind of like this sentence). It was insane. So for all of you out there who I have seen get the confused look on your face when I'm talking because I lost you 20 words ago...I get it!
• after verbatim, then analysis on body language, then I have to write about my personal thoughts I was having...just how honest should I be?
• I'm never going to get this assignment done, good thing it's worth 5% of my mark and has already taken me 4 hours and I probably have another 4 to go. Freaking grad school!
• I think I'm a little stressed....good thing I have another counseling session in 2 and a half hours. Apparently I now need counselling on a weekly basis. When I made fun of my counsellor for this he told me, "well Freud used to see his clients 5 days a week, would you like us to do that?". What a smarty pants... I like him though, he's a keeper!

10 more days.....

So instead of posting a pic of Jason and I, I'm going to go with one of Kitty and I. I've been told that Kitty is trying to get out every time the door is opened. She only did this once, so that tells me she does not want to live there anymore :( I told her before I left that I would be back and to not run away. However I'm not sure if she understood me :) I'm going to have to spend some alone time with her on a few occasions when I'm home. Her and I have been inseparable for 12 years now. So the fact that she's stuck with Jason (the guy she loves to growl at when she's sleeping next to me and he tries to get close), Alpine and Trooper probably has her completely pissed. I know I've certainly missed having her stuck to my side. Oh I can't wait to see her!

ha ha ha the look on her face in the pic is probably how she feels all day everyday right now! Who thinks I look young here? I seriously can't tell the difference of myself over these past few years. Weird! Well other than I don't do make-up, spend way too much money on clothes, or dye my hair anymore like I did here. This was taken in spring of 2003. The good old days before I was married.....ha ha SO JUST KIDDING!

11 more days....

....until I'm back home for a VERY quick visit. In celebration of that I'll try to post a pic a day of Jason and I, since most of you seem to like these old pics I'm digging up.

Mar. 1, 2007 Tucson, Arizona

Little troublemaker....

As I look at this picture it brings tears to my eyes and a smile to my face. This was Trooper's first bath. He was only eight weeks old and three pounds. Now he is seven months old and weighs about 10 pounds.

Although a lot has changed he is still using the freaking bathroom in the house. Everything that I have researched on Shih tzus says that they can take up to a year to house train. It actually also says that until that point it should be unexpected that he can go for extended periods of time without going to the bathroom because of his underdeveloped system. Makes sense right?

Well what does one do when they take this little bundle of joy for a walk and then he walks right into the house and uses the bathroom on your floor (or worse off bed, sorry aunt Lindsay)? He's a huge delight but he frustrates a lot of people in his life as well.

So those of you that have/had dogs..... any advice? Also after this last stint at aunt Lindsay's I think we may need a new babysitter for when Jason goes away again. Any takers :) ha ha ha not after what I just wrote huh?

U2 concert.....

I don't have as many pics as I'd like because I wasn't allowed to bring my camera in. So I thought about bringing my cell, however the cord to download those pics is at home. I therefore decided that I would use Christian's fancy iphone thing, but the fancy iphone thing died in the middle. Here's what I do have....

The concert was at the University of Virginia (who knew that was in Charlottesville) at their football field. Hmmmm I think the team is called the Cavaliers for those of you that know anything about College football. Anyways, I found this interesting because I had never been in a football stadium before. The setup was awesome. So unique! It was called the U2 360 tour. The reason for this is because of the 360 degree stage. It was nice because no seats were bad seats. Here's the stage before the concert even began obviously...

Next, the group with the stage behind. Our seats were really good.... not bad for $55. Can you tell which one of us is from California? So funny! (left to right: Erica, yours truly, Christian, Tara, Danny)

The opening act was Muse. I really liked them. They certainly had a unique sound. After that, U2 came out and played for 3 hours!!! They did 2 encores as well. So it was a late night but well worth it. Bono also got us to send love over seas. It was so powerful. Everyone in the whole stadium was singing "Walk On" with their hands in the air. Yes, I cried :) They sang a few songs I didn't recognize but for the most part I was able to sing along.

Bono also did a solo of "Amazing Grace", so good! Hmmmm I think that's about it. I obviously can't type enough to tell you how wonderful of an experience it was. I'm very thankful that I found out about this and that we were able to pull it together in a week. It wasn't even sold out. That was so weird to me. Enough of my rants....here are some of Tara's pics.....

Silly, silly American.....

American: while humming "Oh Christmas Tree" sings "Oh Canada, Oh Canada" at the chorus

Canadian: smiles thinking it's a joke

American: "See I know more about Canada than you thought, I know the anthem."

Canadian: "Are you freaking kidding me? That's the Christmas song 'Oh Christmas Tree' you dumbass."

American: (laughs hysterically) "Oh whoops!"

*** that's right this actually happened to me last night, I need new friends :) ***

Lessons from week 5.....

1. counselling, even after 5 years of going, is still very necessary in one's life
2. pay attention where you're walking when you're talking (poor Christian walked right into.. like leg on each side....of one of those cables with the yellow plastic thing that come down from the poles onto the sidewalk....he was a hurting unit....Erica and I laughed way too hard though, how supportive of us)
3. when people annoy you don't snap back or you'll feel like a douche and need to apologize
4. try not to smile too big when the prof has picked something you wrote to read to the class to prove his point
5. crying in techniques is just going to happen so suck it up and get used to it
6. concerts in Virginia are outdoors in October
7. choosing not to run to help mode for everyone in my life is becoming a tinsy bit easier
8. when all else fails just reach up
9. instead of trying everything else just reach up initially
10. football fields are massive, outdoor structures
11. there is nothing too special about driving in a BMW, but it makes you feel important especially when you're rocking some California license plates
12. Charlottesville is a bigger city than I thought
13. Chipotle (Mexican fast food restaurant) needs to be visited more often
14. people do care
15. oatmeal isn't that bad
16. no one has it all together, ever
17. doing what you're being asked to, although difficult, is so rewarding
18. calling people crying is okay
19. going home in 2 weeks can feel like forever
20. incorporating client-focused theory and gestalt theory is perhaps becoming a necessary
21. home will always be home and your heart will always be there
22. making close connections with others is so necessary however thinking of leaving them in 2 years makes you want to hold back
23. keeping your mouth shut and just being an attentive, deliberate listener is hard
24. Bono still rocks (more to come on the concert later when I get some pics from those who were with me)

Next day.....

I'm feeling so much better today. I grabbed the hand. I mean really what choice did I have. Funny how everything goes away when I do that. Why I choose to sit in those moments feeling horrible after all of this time is still beyond me. Silly human :)

Oh and guess what???? U2 tonight!!!!!!! Woo hooo...... we're headed there right after class today. Sounds like it's going to be insane in Charlottesville. I wish I could bring my camera in but I'm not allowed :( I'm going to try to take pics with my cell though. Crappy thing is that I didn't bring the cord for that....sheesh I'm a bag blogger :) Just Utube it.....

Off to class I go......time to go cry in techniques!